PRIDE

If I stop and stare and the stars for a while what would I be?
If I cried in the river with your hand at my side, what could this mean?
Sometimes it's so complicated learning new feelings
And maybe I'm new to this
Maybe I'm just tired
Sometimes I want to go home and sit on the steps and watch the birds feed
Sometimes I want to fly and watch as people's lives pass me by
Sometimes I want my dreams to show me the way.
Really I should say nothing at all
Honestly it's a phase that's incompatible with my mind
Someone else's feelings wrapped inside a box
Incorrectly delivered and misrepresented
I'd give it back if I could
Somehow it seems to like me
This feeling has settled inside my bones
Maybe I'm not really human anymore
I could have never appreciated their complexities
It's all too alien to me
I needed something simpler
Still the sun is setting now and the doors close
The streets darken and a pale shadow falls on the world
I'm left to contemplate
I'm left to grow
Left to walk the roads, void of anything at all
Like a simulation replacing reality
Like a situation with no eventuality
I'll be here forever
Maybe I'll wish for someone to take me away
Show me wonders and show me the day
Make me believe I'm more than just organic
Cared for by someone or something
Something I can feel
So come stare into the shadows
So come look for me
Maybe you can find me
You might even catch me
Could I ever cause you harm?
It's a lonely life on the other side of the glass
Still one day I may find them
One day I might be able to stare at the sky and let my tears fall freely
Tears of joy that soak the ground I walk on
Cold wet soil that clings to my feet
That may be how it goes
Still the future may be bright
I still have my pride.